I feel i am alone.

I dunno why but i have been having this feeling this past few days.

Like as if everyone close to me is gg away.

We were all happy once.

We all laughed together once.

But today neither me nor anyone enjoyed themselves.

Why does it jus take 1 sentence to break all barriers.

Why isit that after so much of explaning from you, cant i forget anything?

Why isit that i feel that i wanna go away from all and jus cry my lungs out.

Why isit that now i look at us, from far we are happy. the nearer you go, the more pain u see.

Why isit that i want to sit and cry on ur shoulders but you arent there physically

Why isit that you say we are close but i felt the drift today.

Why in one minute, a stranger becomes a family and a family become a stranger.

Why so much happiness and the suddenly the next turn, PAIN.

i need someone to cry to. to let everything out to. i wanted you to be the one but i wasnt able to.
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You wanna me to apologise and accept ur apology.
But why dont u place urself in my place
yesh wad u said it true
maybe 'who is ur own is ur own and who is not is not'

Papa says i should confront you and talk to you
but why isit i cant look into your eyes and talk to you?

Why isit i dont bother looking to see how you were
why didnt i bother smiling at you

maybe 'your own is your own, an outsider an outsider'

i wish to forget this as time goes by. give me awhile i suppose.
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True we should have met alone today
I had so much to tell you
why wasnt there the same feeling of closness today
why isit i feel scared to tell you wad i want, wad i wish.

wad u said is true.
closness is within your heart and not by meeting continously
yah i agree

But why do i feel the drift?
dont u feel it?

Were we meant to come together for 17 yrs only
I hope not cause you may not know this but u mean really the most to me
i can do and will do anything for you cause to me,
you are the
real sister god didnt give me.


i wish things btw us go better cause i need you badly in my life. u have guided me this far, i need you to go further.